Only if she understood

She, being a magician to me,
whole days and nights 
Encirling her shadows, roaming around i be
She just want me go, but i have been into her magic
Its real hard trying to get farther, how i wish she understands it

Instantly getting close when i feel she wants me near, 
Throws me away when i wish to get dragged towards her 
I have been a unwanted piece of paper
Though sometimes i peep out of a bin 
In a hope she sees me , unfolds my heart
Stretches and goes through it to fix the piece
Even if she doesnt, i just want to let her know, 
I have been into her magic,she should stop it to let me go

When i free my soul,she hides
And there are times when she occupies, 
Its no strange for me,
Coz, in one way or the other everytime, there she is
Deep down even though i know she has never been

In a single look, u think she looks at me?
No, she takes me in, i am dragged into her place
Keeps me in there until she looks away what if I could do so?
I would just be looking at her  my entire life would have no break
Looking away would feel no better then

Life would never demand more,not a single thing would require replacements
Nothing that distracts me would make sense
it just has a moon , I would be no jealous of this earth
I mean,seriously, it would be a greatest boon having her

But only if she understood, its hard being tucked in these two
Either she should feel me back like how i am doing
Or else about her magic that i have been into
If she doesn't feel me, i just want to let her know,
I have been into her magic,she should simply stop it to let me go.…

Under the shade, forever she waits

The moon silently followed as she headed the dead end street
Walking alone made her feel, it never really left her to be
Her body and her soul, being guided nowhere
She laid down there to smile at it and she started to share

All her day how she missed it when all above was clouded
Her life would never be the same
if she hadn't found the one with whom she shared
How she worried the dark, when it went off for days

Slowly and swiftly how it came back to lighten her up,
to bring back her grace As soon the Night starts,
fear rumbles around her heart, And She thanked to god,
she had it,the moon to brighten the dark

The times she didn't see it, her soul never left searching
never losing hope, she believed it comes to her only
It needs sometime too beside hearing her cry and seeing her in pain
May be it also sheds off tears to mix it up with the rain

it may be like how she felt to leave when she really wanted to be left alone
But she used to come to it and it broke her to know,it has left and forever gone
As when summer comes and it happily brings the leaves along
To dry those off, make it fall quickly, not letting it see the winter even

Let it vanish, she thought to wait her lifetime in the name her life belongs
But the clouds are never leaving, killing her soul everyday in the hope that it comes..

Emptiness

Staring constantly at a wall
Thinking nothing for a while
You may say i am dreaming
But having left that years ago
i just keep my eyes still
at a point, where nothing seems to move
The point where i see myself,

My past, where i was and my coming days where i am going to be
And that's been like my habit
I don't remember the point where i started,
neither do i plan when to stop
I just go numb inside,
as if all the forces are uniting to keep me alive
making me feel like they are the one helping me breathe,

Helping the past me to stand today as a present me
all the zumbled worries they unfold right there i find a lead to keep me go
with a faint pain they get washed even more
i am then relieved like i had never had those..

So that's like my fighting back, the fight with myself
since with creator i never had any complains
No one is uselessly made, there is no doubt for sure
Somewhere to use myself i am up, so don't ask me why did i do so

I don't have answer to those silly questions
To those who want to believe,these are the ways i feel, the ways my heart heal..

Until she sleeps

A small paper work hangs on the ceiling
Enormously colored with her desire
a young heart at its most had made it look much prettier
Red seeming thick, thicker than the molasses

Used to go into her nerves as she woke up
Making her day even brighter, filling her soul with more blood
Blue kept her calm,slight vague than the red one
the light as it fell on it,that bluish glow used to keep her warm
The way she used to start her day and end similarly
Until the day she choose to lay in her bed, the eyes stared constantly
It stroke all of us apart, the red didn't hit her nerves

Even when she looked straight at the ceiling
It was strange, her heart stopped but beauty rose up and that was stunning
By next day red faded, blue thinned even more
Cobwebbed,It hung there inanimately,watching her go

She was coffined to be taken to graveyard, Near her mother's grave,
everyone knew that would be better, But no one did know what actually was
Her mother had never returned to complete the blue
She had her life in the paper that she drew


The lighter blue, with all her labor she made it look dark at her best
Willing to take it along with her, she herself moved to stay there where her mother rests

The beginning

Immense desire haunts her as she gets across
A new platform, new faces every single matter points to her
Feeling gloomy internally, a  fake smile,she manages though
The sensation precise the earth when clouds cover the sun as a whole



In the crowd, hearing herself as she shouts within
"This should not happen,i cant show up there with this feeling''
Quarrel continues as she steps up between her fear and her courage
Finalizing the fact, its inevitable she gets up on the stage

Nervousness gluing over her, with no support, she bends down
in front of the thousands of eyes that believed,
thousands of hopes for brightness, the candle burnt out
Hearing the hopes of her pity soul tearing apart in that deep silence

Tears bursting out, Pineal eye, dis enable, unable to sense 
A sudden blow of desire that hit her hard
Starting all over again, the flame of candle
she got up to commence finally

The applaud and the cheer following her dreams,
assembling the pieces of her constellated hopes and wishes...