What if..

If struggle would be hidden like a simple ignorance
You never know,standing in a mass where would i be
Piles of devils that keep dragging me
And i would just smile and watch it be free

I have never let myself go off
Off to the limit everything flows
If rivers flew that easily
You never know,i could wish no more
The winds need not blow, neither the clouds required their existence
We would simply laugh at nature
Only if everything would be what we desire..

You would give me wings and quickly i would learn to fly
Willing to abide the scorching day,there would be no sun rise
And without the rise how would the sun set
There would again be devils and the struggles they would stay
Rivers do posses the rocks that hinder it

Even it scorches at day,
Sun rises being calm and sets as it is....
Concludes as the river doesn't flow this easy
At the end what if ever remains what it is..

Love overcomes..

He remembers how her beauty glowed
when simply few reds were put on her lips
Her eyes glistened how
A lump of coal was carved on it

And he sees the same but a pale beauty on her
Fresh and somehow turning to blue
He tries to kiss her as she lays
fading away she has left all her sense


Even the touch of his finger that would make her feel the magic of nature
And now she response not, the tight grab around her arms!

Like a rainfall hitting you from the sides ,
when you are under the roof
Life has hit him many times,
Challenging him to stand still
And at once pulling his steps
She, his courage was what he had just started to feel

Let him no more be that way
His soul may no longer resist
A detachment like a part of him has left
A playful drama for him its what the almighty has chosen
He has been a cadaver nothing to do with his breath
He wishes to take it away along the way her soul rests..
 

Wishing to regain what i had..

Suffocation and the hatred being faced

Running and hiding all around the past moments
I have gained nothing but a dissatisfied heart
I dont say i dint try, but my foot lacked strength
It was unable even failing to step a single path ahead
Why do i roam around with those moments that leave nothing but a merciful smile
Even trying to hide n fake have started seeming fake
Proving me the fact, straight flowing tears have limit it can be hidden with a curve
I have thus ceased to peep back neither i dream so far

For i know these will have the same endings
Unlike in movies, real life rarely end up living
happily ever after and each n every lives possessing wonderful meanings..

I need to take off my skins follow what my spirit utter
Locking up my today with pains and suffer
Tying up a black coat on my yesterday's eye
I need to march pass to see what my future holds
For which i need myself together with the stars
They will blow me to land of my wishes
Giving me a safe turn over
Making me able to cope up with my today and yesterdays

Thus i am underneath the clear sky
Underneath the clear looking moon
Underneath the peace and calmness
I have disappeared among the darkness
To regain what i used to have.. 
My heaven my life that i call
I have asked sometime to be away from these all
To regain what i used to have
My heaven my paradise that i call..

together.. we two

I see my world getting high when you look at me
With those wonderful eyes that glows as when sun is over the sea
Every music finds its rhythm
When u get more closer
your breaths are the favorite music that i have ever heard

you try to catch me and i want to be catched
Baby i am not running away
I am wishing you to force me to make me into your arms
Running and hiding when we play with the stuffs

I want you to see me behind the door and grab me to take me into your world

It feels like the moment has stopped
When i touch your lips 
And its raining coz we've poured our every feelings
and If i am wrong why does it rain when we are together
 till you are here, there is no single storm that i need to fear
your silence are my drugs and your words are the same
your touch has been my necessity, 
I need them every morning and days
Every morning and evening as the sun hides 
I want to hide back to you wishing you every morning and good nights
I want our times with us,
be no part of this fake world
Kissing you every day lying on your arms
I dont wanna return 
I dont wanna return!!!!!!!

The pain that lasts forever..

I lack to figure out the reason i was not able
Its tough enough to remain surrounded by trouble
The trees could move their feet,
Best pal the fire and oil could be made
But the lasting pain in my inner heart
Never could be healed

Its getting rusted over, it needs to be painted
With a colour that never fade away
And a unthrony bed of roses i need to be granted
But the stars may day shine
Flowers could ever remain
The lasting pain in my inner heart
With a new day could never begin

Matter to paint my heart if could be bought
I would wave my every sorrows and  bad thoughts
But the days and nights could alter
Steady flowing oceans could be blocked
The lasting pain in my inner heart
Always remains as a rock
I can never attach with joy
With a pile happiness my life can never ride
Cause my pain of not being able will ever and forever be aside..

Distance....

The time really we cant predict
Breaking the promise i made to you
Today ,i am departing
I am leaving you dear, making you alone
But have faith in me , someday i will surely come to take you my home
Don't cry dear, don't give pain to your heart

Be sure we will ever be together thought distance let us apart
And to me, you being everything
Your love will obviously let me back...

Your single drop here will wet my chicks wherever i am
At your every smiling moments, my days will be lightened
Dear be happy coz your smile is my courage
Your support is the only one with what i am moving my days


Don't let your nights go missing my presence
Always be with hope dear
Will be struggling just for you till my end
Don't wait me there, at the place where we used to
Coz, i have already moved away, Far away from you..

Sorry dear i couldn't bid you, the last goodbye then
Your innocence would have let me go very weak
And i wouldn't have the strength to face you
With the truth which i would be going through
The last moment i was being with you...

It would really have fallen me dear
Along with my desire...
The desire to let you be with everything you want
To give you everything you wish for..
Do try understanding dear, don't ever think i left you with mesh
Will ever be with you, missing you an your prettiness...!!

Bless and regards to you, with lots of love i am leaving
Never lose hope, with everything one day, i will surely be coming
Your love for me will obviously let me back
And again at that very place,
we will together be.. Letting everything apart..

i am the one; blessed one

Of All the dawns i have lived
Warbling within looking those leaves
I have never felt so precious
Than To be your delicate wish
Numbers of my hope, as they crash
Lifting it up when you glue them all
Threatening the anguish to be nowhere seen
Being so blessed, I find a superior princess within

And then i realize again
Of all the summits i have reached
Determined and made them worth 
I have never felt so special than to be your rising hope 

Entire world i have been trying to visualize
Yet everytime you being on my side
Of all those falls and rise
Of All those love and affections 
all those hates and domination
Theres nowhere even a single place
Where i dont get myself under your shade
The whole might be against
But with your generosity  i will be always blessed

Because i have realized 
Of all those winds and fires
The burns and the hazel 
The uplifts and the gains
The priors and the mains
My world will ever be you
I have never felt so special
Than to be along with you
and when i figure out your affection for me
with a feel of charm, i find myself being shy 
i find a grace within me 
to be apple of your eye !

Hazy

Should i call myself fortunate?
For i misplaced my solitudenes,
i forgot how we used to be
for what propose it existed within me
I lacked idea how glad it made me in search of grace
No matter how i was, i was satisfied
For i knew my life, it itself was a mess!!

I am insane forgetting i had life i dint wanted to share
Every single day i wrote to almighty hoping it would reach there..
I murmered my wishes, that i rarely expected would come true
Yet i laid everynights expecting to go well through

I fought with what i owned
My own never resembled my wants
I cycled my ideas because inovation  was some other stories
It was something that never striked on my mind
All i wished was some miracle that would settle me aside
And now all those hassle, they have comprised my daily life
Making me glad and in all ways satisfy!




My tiny expectation that turned out to be real
And i stood here as like i  had always  wished to heal
Standing on my destined way, waking on the road i ever wanted to be
I found myself blessed with all my dreams surrendering for me

I dont have to fight anymore , pains have become nightmare for me
that i have never seen
Strangely Now i search my solitudeness  somewhere within,
And wish for my messy life that at least would make me happy for my thousands of minor sufferings!

I miss my countryland

The clouds mouldering above my head
Compelling me to web my thoughts
And taking me back to those days
Where i would stand out of corridor
To hear those pretty birds of my land sing
That mud which would make me inhale the smell of its own

And now,
When i stand and stare here
Outside of the similar corridor
I find these birds, pretty enough though
Who have never won my heart say
You miss your country land you miss your country's door
I don't think i can satisfy myself
Still i must , for this has to be my home for long
Every morning i die inside to walk out with pride
And every nights i die again to hear my mom wish me a goodnight

This can never replace the place where i was
These birds, they never warble the song i used to hear
I hear find nothing in me that would make me myself
The more i try to be me , the more my heart it starts to pain
I wanna heal at least recalling those days
Where i would proudly stand and stare
The nature of my land which no other place now can replace

And as the rain falls on my head
Rolling on my face it tries to tease
Neither i enjoy nor i wish to play with it
For deep inside i know its not the one that belongs to me
I clearly can smell the fragrance of my lovely days
And with my glistening eyes my internal rain rolling upon me it says
Desiring to cease i sadly hear them say
I miss my country land that's where i wanna stay
Its myself here, whether i flourish or cry out loud
No one is gonna ask me why where and how?
Finally its so , i silently move back to my own
For this is the same place that has to be my home for a longthat has to be my home for a long..