Wednesday 23 November 2011

My motherland is being corroded..


The second of her slight hope and next second of her unseen tears
I want to wipe them out, 
my motherland, my country has already have it so enough..

I shivered deep inside 
for it is being corroded along with my longing
I no more can wait for something better
When i am aware of unfare stuffs thats going

My hope is being a burning matchstick
Unable to light the candle
The pace of my hope has never exceeded 
Everytime i light a stick and in a second it mourns

The glow of her face i can see it fading day by day
I am still longing hoping to hear from someone, a miracle let us say
To bring her same glow Someone will be standing here 
Then i would no more have to agonize for my motherland,
i will no more have to fear! 

The second of her scream for her child,for their hurts
and next for her bleeding face and tored skin parts
I want to wash them out, 
my motherland, my country has already have it so enough..

So how can i wait for something better 
When i am aware of whats going on is unfair
The more I go through my love for her
i fear deep inside for my country is being corroded as i long for..
As i long for..


i cant make you stay..



Getting you busy over plans to pack up
Here i am with the crushing heart
still with the cracks i need to hold it on
The freezing blood in me, to make it softly run !

Weakness in me will tear up your eyes
I hardly need to smile with the lumps inside
Still i cant stop it happen, cant make you stay
coz , i realize,
The pain in you is far more than i can say !

Uncontrolled tears make their way out
whenever i feel you depart
i cant hold on to my emptiness,
I cant satisfy my heart !

Fearing so bad for the day is soon to come
Then, the days will turn out worse from the new morn
when i will realize, waking up worth no more
that goodnight kiss being the last one,
To wish me the day, you wont be around,
You wont be around !!

I will try feeling warm, strengthen my heart
 with your love inside me
But miles of distance far, its for sure
I wont be able to be..

Thousands of days without you
wont make my any-day
still i cant make it happen
I cant make you stay .. !!!






Wednesday 16 November 2011

I continued to stare..



Feels like today
A rainy dawn it was
Trying to save her little kid
She had already wetted her back
And i was there on a park bench
Watching her with vigour..

I was there to enlighten myself
the peace i used to feel there and with the nature's help
It was a soft rain, still i was peirced
Being lost for a while, i keenly watched
For i saw her teen spirit around her
Who seemed to have left her just a year ago
Within her there lied a wish, to gudbye those worst days n sorrow..

with that rainfall, i saw her wish
She hoped she could join her hands and mouth with ease
she laid breast feeding her child
Along with two others at the side
Beneath the tree with a small bucket
Unable to do anything i continued to stare,

Dissatisfaction flowed within my bloods
Still i needed to be silent
This was for what she was brought here
It was within her fate..
She can Neither fight for what she desires
Nor detach her soul
All she can do is watch the people passing by
And expect to make her bucket full
And i was still on that bench
Watching her with the same pace

As She felt proud, Tears glistened her eyes
This time She was able to save her child
She breathed out Aware of what else might catch them up there
My eyes doloured too and I continued to stare
I continued to stare !!!


Monday 14 November 2011

Have faith on yourself , Time and Tide wait for some..



  • chance and opportunities are matter of seeking..
  • luck is never owned but created..
  • blessings are the reward when you put yourself through these two..
  • and finally, destiny is the gateway that has been locked up with the blessings, find the keys and you are right there !!

                                                                                         


Sunday 13 November 2011

googling something about virtuality that supperesses the real world...



today technology is being not only interest and enthusiasm but a matter of necessity. in every steps it is inadverently being used up.As we know,every stuffs has pros and cons as the two sides of the coin,technology inspite of its brilliant features and the amazing ways that automatically ends up with our mouth open without exactly not noticing, it has its two sides.
 
today if somebody asks me. "who is your best friend" i will for sure with no doubt reply it with "google"  because it is with whom i spend most of my moments more than with my buddies and even more than with my parents. from how to have your food stuffs properly with how to dress up well,how to act when what happens,everything we google,when we get to hear a single new word that we havnt heard before, immedialtely the thought to google it up comes to our mind. those things that we are supposed learn from our parents, our buddies, those things that we are supposed to disscus it and intrepret it with them, these responsibilities have actually transfered to google in today's busy life. i am never far from google, i carry it along with me every moments,even when i am asleep it lies beside me on my bed, in my mobile phone. If i dream something unusual, i immediately google it for intrepreting it,so it satisfises my desire, quenches my thirst of knowing something that i would rarely gain from any of my friends. so i can visualise it, how internet has touched me,to my daily life.

and facebook,i cant even complete my fingers of both hands if i have to count my dear buddies but i am proud to say i have hundreds of them there. when i login to facebook, i dont login only to facebook but to the different world, the world of virtuality, apart from the real world. far apart from the real one. A place where people completely go insane, where they can explore everything and every parts they are not associated to. most of us have failed to realize this fact that what seems on facebook is mostly not real, and what is real is mostly not seen on facebook. but we, everyone of us has already learnt to get adapted, to explore and to enjoy this virtual world. also,one fact because of which we enjoy it so much is that we can be a totally unique creature here which we fail to be in real life. apart from the other fact that we every humans are in the same or the other way unique from each other, failing to explore this soul, our uniqueness in real life, the desire within us to be something extra most of the times is aided via facebook. the same one in real contrasts his ideas, thoughts, ways of thinking with the virtual one. one loses his realness here.its so we get to hear and most of us have faced too, the cases where the heart gets break up when it has to take a complete 'U' turn while getting back to real world from the virtual one, coz we visualize it too late..

however in todays busy life, where people are not being able to hold on to even blood relations, here it has become a matter to make us feel complete, at least while we are onto it.in my context, it makes me feel warm as a support to hook on with life as my real life's friends are the diaries and the notebooks, from whom i dont expect a feedback and a reply in return.a one sided talk.and  for problems and suggestions i can completely rely on my best friend, google with whom i can share evrything, knows more than me and is a perfect friend. only the sad part is that, it cant breathe, it has no life. but most of the time, i do feel it better coz something that is exactly like us and has life are the rare ones with whom we can share and truly  be friendly for life time long..you may wonder with what about the hundreds of friends of facebook? you know, they are the different stories, the whole world differs with them.


and so solitudeness has unwantedly become my habit that neither i can freely feel like enjoying into the real world nor always get into the virtual ones. its not only my fault because real ones,they dont attract like the virtual one does.and next, i have realization virtual ones are infact not the real ones.not the real ones..

i fear someday some of us,who gets hit by the sun rays of the other world to start the day and gets asleep with the same one to begin it the other day, fearing with the solitudeness in real world,might not get chance to feel the specialty of being here and might not live to the fullest for not getting chance to fear the death. some, they might be born in the other world and never realize the fact that there is the real world in real, never letting his blood flow with the lively thoughts, his own thoughts that comes from within, and never getting to interpret something in the way his soul feels. Actually never getting to live life that must be felt as a granted one to feel its importance. and pasing the days along with the virtual rays every morning, he might get mixed up with the dusts of the same world at the end. he may never get a chance to breathe in the real air.he may never live the real life, in real world with the real air breathing in and the real pains facing and letting it go into his nerves and flow into his bloods. his blood that would never get a real flow, to actually live a real life wasting all the creativity he would have shown with the aid of the real world..


today most of us, we engage ourself unnecesserily into virtuality like facebook as mentioned already,then comes hi5 google +, twitter, you tube and so on apart from our benificial deeds..we are attracted to such moments that has tried to snatch our real life activities. here virtuality meaning the part of real life that suppress our real world, i fear someday,it may occupy it as a whole and supress it in such a way that somebody if even tries to peep into it may get suffocated and slowly people may not log in to real world and finally it may come to an end.

so i fear with it, i fear losing the nature, i fear losing the humanity in real, an
yes i fear losing the world in real, the world in real ... !!!!!!!!

Tuesday 8 November 2011

it was not me..


i shouted and cried aloud
but no body around cared
wanted to ask for help but no one dared
Amazed, no reply i got..
made me feel like, my presence or not..
why is this? why people are so ?
thought assisting wont make their pride go..
no one is ready to hear my sound
and me ??
i could hardly view around..
Again i asked..
trembling with fear..
but, no humanity was there..
my voice reached and it was not affecting
touched forehead and it was bleeding..
i shouted and cried, moved a bit
the situation was that
if somebody would led me feed..
palms full of scratches
as if faced struggle
i wonderingly shouted more..
coz my condition was terrible..
help ! help ! i said
and i cried for lord
i was alone in that long crowded street
surrounded by blood !
hands got up
legs moving harder
people gathered there..
taking about murder,
went nearby and i saw the wound
speechless..
in a body, similar to me..
as if it was traced..
cloth upon me whitish in color
everybody mourned and i was suffered..
uncontrolled, i laid on road
passed a car upon, and no harm it showed
finally i screamed,
getting to know
it was not the people's fault
why my voice dint reach
coz it was not the complete me..
it was just my soul..
it was just my soul..

we will be one..

waking the same known path
as i did with you, i feel
though everything is apart now,
memories havent moved a bit
the promises we together kept
which rain was that? took it miles away
looking at your tear filled eyes,
i wish i could make it all as you say
everything to make it over and
be with you, never leaving forever
but, the time flew us away, apart from there
along with the promises, the desire to be together ..
as the days kept moving,
the thing which i always feared with,
the departure led our intimacy go weak

how can your promises be false?
your silly heart wont be understood by all
feelings of your raining eyes can never be wrong
and though we lie far, our soul, to both of us it belongs

wondering on if he feels the same as i do
to wait for his arrival is what i am used to
and till the end, up to me i hope you are coming,
and then in the same way as before, we could begin

the days and nights, we will never feel alone
coz the same rain that wiped all, is again making us one..
the same rain will wipe out all and make us one.. !!



silly me...





the time, the place though usual 
i felt a difference within me
the lights were not changed
but the pace in me, i could clearly see..
i laid , thought for a while
in each glimpse, your face was on eyes!
the talks we had, the times we spent,
it has passed so soon,
waiting it to be back again..

unable to stop my smile, i asked myself
no one was around, though shyness covered my face
i ran away, away from me..
the fact, i couldnt lie, i knew
my silly heart was in search of you..

nothing but you were on my glimpse,
no one but you were on my beats
then i knew, you were the one surrounding me
you were the one, with whom i always be..
yes, the one i missed !
to be mine forever, the one i wished..
it was you.. it was only you !!! 



want my childhood back !!

moment of those days, a part of mine
is really precious and now its far behind
no piles of deeds and no blurry thoughts
freely lie on lap, enjoy cheating a lot !
beyond the discipline but truth was ever
me the future star, was knowing life, the better

wanted to be aged and everything to hold,
importance of that moment, then who had known ?
dolls and buckets, teddies were my friends
time could have stopped but had to follow its trend...
singing and dancing, my hobbies they used to be
heart gets behold , the turning pages of life when i see..

now miss those days and wish to go back,
to regain and collect all the enjoyments i lack
want the lost part of me, my laughter and naughty needs,
if possible then, i again want to be a kid,
i want to be a kid !!!


Friday 4 November 2011

magic at back and front stage

i scream and shout a loud to warm up
as the will to win is forcefully hitting my nerves
for i have dreams within my single red drop
providing me courage serving me up
makes me stand still, because i deserve
the path i am tracing is the one we all are in search..

i wonder for i have conceived of myself more than the god
what actually it is, the world has been longing for
i am selfish for i have struggled myself to grow up
a gene in me as i am human, a living creature by nature...

i wonder even more seeing people follow deity
haven't often seen them confiding truth that's existing
we know the mystery behind, every buds have self sown
we reside on the same nature that has provided us with everything we have own

i have seen people fight for some more days to live
run from death and hide
a reality apart  from the webbed thoughts
i am forced to abide..

a magic behind the stage and world is giving a applause
his conjuration we accept, weakening the hopes we have bind up
fighting within mind, a conspiracy for the trick on the stage
a realization being lacked, divine thoughts have sniffled our head

if i am asked to chose, i would prefer the front door
i don't wish to trick the world when eyes be close
coz i have seen the reality, i better face the conspiration
for i have tangible dream to magically perceive the situation
willing to satisfy hearts when the eyes be open
i dream of winning this world, within the reality and among the real ones.... !!!!








Wednesday 2 November 2011

All alone i be..

a moment i recalled
the time i was about to fall
roses in your hands by my side
waiting for me you wer there

but the falls now i count
equal to those stars
withered roses lying by my side
with pictures in my heart

the scattered hopes and dreams
trying to collect my heart pieces
the struck in me..far from the horizon
the laughter we used to share

no more able i am ,,nothing in me
scratches in my feelings,, bleed-ed it is....

the eyes staring at which,lovely u uttered
making me smile...the promises u kept
forever to be together

now the eyes missing ur stare
tears in them it says
its really hard enough
to let tears go back their ways

worthless it is.. to shun my feels
coz,,the eyes wont let them to hide
evry single nights the dreams that they roam
making me realize..i want u by my side

these days..winds..no more blows my hairs
no stars twinkle at me...
birds evn don seem singing around me..

along wid u everything waved me byee
now noone turn their back..noone cares for me
with the torn heart..bleeded feels
all alone here i be....all alone here i be....!!!