the FEELS

I feel so intense being one to be here

Being resolved, being thrown away

And being accused of delusion  

And I feel like I am losing everything 

Everything I had, everything I arranged to make myself

This is fading away, far away

I am shuddering in this frosty cold 

Thunders don’t let me be secure 

My foundations are trembling 

I am losing my wings

They have been so wet since long 

But this rain doesn’t seem to stop 

At least I could stand to walk away into the despair

Where is it taking me??

I sense myself being chaotic 

This isn’t the usual rain 

Hard like hails, its falling on my head

Tired of saving myself from these all

My hands have been bleeding 

They are frozen already 

I need sunshine to dry me up

Dry my muddled red eye 

Free my muddled heart

Join my scattered feathers 

And amass all to create myself again

It might be easy to explore the bewildered happiness,

But the trance that stays but doesn’t please 

It makes you a corpse

A living coarse 

With everything you need but all dead from within 

I am tired of dying indoors 

Living as an abrasion 

I would better lacerate and get lost 

I better get lost indeed than to sense this feel