Help me hear my soul

Goodbye to all the gracious memories,

That led me to be here, to be on my own again.

Not to satisfy myself but in order to seek love,

To learn how to love and console myself again.

To wash out all my injuries,

All my memories that haunt me till today.

To erode the moment from my life that took all of me from myself,

my joy, my happiness, my smile and my self being

In fact, my body along with my soul and my belief

All the happiness has faded away and guilt covers my whole

Guilt, not for what I did but for what I was forced

Guilt, not for being who I have become today,

But, for losing my innocence.

Guilt, not for being unable to fight

but for being born as a weak, craving  for support

to even stand on my own

Lately happiness has been scaring me,

Feeling of joy is terrifying me

I fear of dark, I fear of day,

I fear each and every seconds when I am aware.

Tears help me wash out my memories;

The efforts I make to shout out loud help me be aware of me

I go insane looking at the lacerations,

The bruises and the scratches, I see

They might heal in long run

 But it has left as a permanent scar within me

Hopes bring out the fear to my inner self

I might be the victim once again

I do hope. It’s not the one that tries bringing old me back

But just to take away the abhorrence I have for my body,

Though I am alive, I don’t really exist within me

I can make my heart understand,

But soul hardly hears me..